Hong Le's Ideology

Halo~!!! Thanks for reading my previous post and if you haven't please do read from bottom (my first post where the story starts). As the title says, it's Hong Le's Ideology. Continue to previous post my perception was that Qin Qian purposely delay the topic until a more suitable time or deceive me about the solving of this problem. Perhaps you think that how stupid am I to believe that the storm was over. What proof? Well, since you ask, I answer. In our SMS, she even offer to tell me the identity of the future president (Shin Yie), for such occasion signified our friendship or alliance and the end of such unnecessary conflict which destroy the harmony and peace, a major life scource in my life. According to my logic, I childishly accepted that peace. For such atitude, I was unaware of her assault which she might have planned since the day I think this conflict was solved.

Well, back to the main topic. Hong Le's Ideology. I believe those who study in 4SD would know who is Tam Hong Le gua? Okay, his ideology sounds that Qin Qian thought that I want to hold a high post since I have spoken that I will be better than her, then Hong Le assume that she was the one who nominated me. Well, after the way I filled the form which shows that I was just trying to be a normal member, she thought that I was challenging her. That's Hong Le's suggestion, which is quite make sense to me.

However, I here by try to perfect his ideology which acts as a basic idea of my new assumption. Hahahaha!!! It sounds like I am Mao Zedong which converted Communism into Maoism. I think that she felt that I felt like I was better than her so she tried to make me an AJK and further run a series of tests of my capabilities. As result she may be the one who nominated me. Well, I guess she was as well frustrated when she found me not serious while filling the form and I was just trying to be a normal member, she thought that I meant she was not even good or capable enough to be a normal member. Again I emphasise that it's just my assumption. However this article is dovoted to Hong Le's for his Ideology which enlightened me.

The Letter Which I Spoke Of Earlier

To Cheong Qin Qian:

First of all, I would want to ask that why I was named as a candidate. I was shocked to see my name there. Who is the one who name me? I was wandering was it you who named me. I thought we had got along a long time ago. I thought peace and harmony between us have been achieved. And today (22 August) I just come to school to attend the Annual General Meeting as a responsibility of a normal member to choose my future leader and to honor the ceremony of such important event to BOMBA. So unfortunately, that I was not here to choose but to be chosen. Yes that I as a human must not lie to my ally that I did said before that I will become a better president of BOMBA compared to you. As I told you already that it was my strategy to give you pressure on such occasion that there is a member react so aggressively to your mistake (or it maybe I who are mistaken). It is just an effort to make you improve. So it seems like the results is totally not as I anticipated. I foresee that your effort to silence me is to make your leadership perfect until I cant say anything. But it seems now that I was wrong.

Back to the main problem. During the interview, you asked me whether I am a responsible member, and I said no. The main reason is that I failed to do my duty that time you asked me to go GO march. I was mad that time that before GO march we go for school level march during sports day, and we missed a lot of classes. Still remember that Chang Koon, Tiang, and I show our objection to cancel our involvement in marching because we care much of our study. Our such choice which choose academic before co-curriculum makes you more qualified to become the president I think. And that time you said that if we don’t want we must tell you earlier. So when GO march request came, we told you that since last time you told us that we can ignore it if we ignore early early during our first notification. We did so but you said we can’t and we must involve. We were so frustrated that after what you said in the past doesn’t work. Well, I am sure you remember that I was the first one to turn my back on you and left. By the way, what’s a responsible member? I try my best to march my best. I try hardest to straighten my arm during “sedia” and “jalan kaki” stat. I try my best to walk nice nice but there are many confused order during the march. I know the right one but with all around me doing the wrong one plus the Form 3 commander didn’t correct them. Many commanders are so soft in sound. The timing won’t come out form us without some punishment. So unfortunately, the commanders are kinda like messing around, spending their time that even many were wrong weren’t punished. I am undoubtly the first one to say “aye!” to run 10 rounds in field as punishment, but the commanders only meant to frighten us and the trick doesn’t seems work. If I were the president I would have all those commanders round the hall as a good example. And some commander (one of my closest friend) even said that I should follow the others or adapt the wrong style as they do wrong because that would be showing some unity. It’s like calling me not to tuck my shirt because more than 50% boys don’t do so. So I am indefinitely not a good member, but just now you said as if BOMBA had been becoming this bad because of my involvement. Is there no other member worse than me?

Besides, I feel sad everytime I miss BOMBA so I had never missed any meeting all these years. By the way, I did attend any telematch and camp without any hesitation. I wanna learn how to be a real BOMBA member (know how to put out a fire) although I wasn’t serious when I chose BOMBA when I was Form 1. So I never miss any camp hoping we would be thought how to handle such disaster if there is any surprising fire in school. It’s such a shame that I as a kadet BOMBA, I never use any fire extinguisher before. We only learn theory which is useless because we can learn that in KHB or Chemistry. By the way, today I was named to be a candidate of being an AJK or more, but I really don’t have the will to do it. Maybe you may think that I am a coward who doesn’t even dare to speak in front of you, but I apply to be an AJK during Form 1 and Form 2. All I want is to experience the responsibility and to get experience which is enough to carry me to become the president of BOMBA in the future. My failure had led me to frustration because I wasn’t well known even among my own Form member. I had killed my will to hold such responsibility since then. That’s the reason I refuse to answer your question this afternoon (it was almost 1.00 p.m.). One more thing, you said : “Let’s don’t waste time since you don’t want to answer”. Those words really make me mad. I was surprisingly named during the election and further more I already told all the members not to choose me, plus what I wanted was to attend the ceremony and go back home to enjoy my holiday as soon as possible. I tried many times asking Jie See when was my turn and she replied was to ask me to wait.. wait… wait…. I thought we cant enter unless you approved us to be interviewed. So I waited because Jie See also didn’t call me. I am suppose to go back at 10 a.m. like all other member, but I can only go at approximately 1.15 p.m. You wasted me 3 hours of waiting. Who was wasting time after all? By the way, how many members are there? How many attended this AGM? Those who didn’t are responsible member? So here I question your definition of a responsible member.

You asked me what’s my view of a good president for I think I am better than you. First, I said that just to give u pressure as I told earlier. Although I just know how to talk, or criticize, but I do have some view of what’s a good president, that your weakness is that you are not good in controlling your “anak buah”. Your leadership is here by being questioned. And one more thing, you and Shin Yie (the new president) said that I only know how to talk and busy criticize but I didn’t prove my idea through my action. Hey!!! Must the public (citizen of a country) able to form a far better government in order to criticize to the government? What would you feel if you have an opinion or a comment about the government, and u said it but the government reply you : “If you so intelligent you come and form a government see loh!!” What would you feel? This tyranny, the government’s irresponsibility in their reply that they try to silence you instead of solving the problem. Yet again here by I question your responsibility as a president.You as a president should act more noble and rational than a talkative member. You are metaphor as the government and I as the public. Your duty is to satisfy the public, not to silence them. Enough for today. I am tired. I believe you get this from Jie See because I can’t find another way to give it to you during the holiday. Have a nice holiday.

From: Max Pang Sin Yang

(The most frustrated man in Nan Hwa, more frustrated than Adolf Hitler, I am a

man who will cause evil if tempted.)

[For those who wish to leave a comment, please comment in my hotmail address, maxpang@live.com]

Incident On 22 August 2009

That day was a grand day. A big day. Do you guys know why? Well, it's the Annual General Meeting (AGM) of BOMBA. It's quite strange that the AGM is usually held at the beginning of the year. Well of course that 2009's AGM was over early in the beginning of the year but this AGM is the 2010's AGM. I wondered when I heard of this event which is considered an odd event since I have been in BOMBA for almost 4 years and the first 4 years' AGM was held in January, but this time 2 AGMs are held in a year. I suppose it's the AGM for the year 2010. However, my love for BOMBA makes me feel so excited that finally BOMBA has proven some efficiency after 2 years of obvious downfall. Gladly that the day before I was quite excited and was chatting with an old friend until 2.30 a.m. before I went to sleep. I woke up at 8.15 a.m. and I was surprise to see my handphone clock at this late. Without any delay I quickly went to brush my teeth in addtition of a little washing of course. I feel so bad to be late on such honorable event, I just called my father to buy a few pieces of "kiuh-muih" and ate in my car during the journey to school. At last I reached the school hall at about 8.45.

With great joy I went to search my friends near the Form 3 block which the AGM was about to start. Approximately 9.00 a.m. we went into 3K class and the AGM started. Our off-going President, Cheong Qin Qian started with a short English speech, followed by the afternoon session teacher whom name I had forgotten, and in addition with a nice speech from our beloved Mr. Victor, Nan Hwa's morning session History teacher. Well, what more? Hey!! You idiot? Of course it continued with election of next year's AJKs. But first, Miss Cheong announced the President of the year 2010. As I expected she was Wong Shin Yie. She delivered a very fluent English speech which impressed me that she wasn't holding any notes in her hand and her pronunciation was absolutely perfect for debate. After this, the election began. First, it was the nomination of candidate from Form 1, 3 and 4. How about Form 2 and Form 5? Well, Form 2 had only 2 attendance whereas Form 5 is gonna leave. So? Is it clear? We had a great time not by naming people but by choosing. Actually I did named someone Form 3 but the situation went bad when I was nominated. So unfortunate isn't it? Well of course after the nomination the candidate had to come out infront to introduce themselves. They all tried their best but when it came to me, I just said 2 sentences in chinese which sounds like this in English : " My name is not important, never to choose me will be your best choice.". Cool right? Although it's a bit stupid and folly cause that only caught more attention, I had showed my determination not to hold any post. The election ended with the collection of all the votes from the present member.

I thought the winds that chilled my spine had blown away, but it turned out to be more complicated. Those who were nominated must stay late or you may say not to go home as usual. What's the reason? Well, we had to fill a form. Strange and unusual form. However I filled it without any suspect plus I filled it in the most hilarious way I could possibly fill. It followed by interview!!! Oh my God!! I was just a poor guy which required rest and this interview idea was nothing meaningful to me but a waste of time. However, I tried to collaborate with the authority. I waited and waited until I couldn't wait there because I had to go to take photo behind the school for the uses of "Sivik Folio". I passed up the form and requested to go out for awhile. I also told Jie See that I was in a hurry that I needed to go home as fast as possible because I am really tired and I needed to rest. After I came back, I requested to be interviewed next as I had no interest to hold any post. When Jie See came out to call the candidates to be interviewed I asked her if it was my turn. However she called me to wait and she called the others. Again after she came out I was notified to wait somemore. I suppose all candidate must wait their turn. So I patiently waited for my turn. It's kinda strange that everytime I requested to be the next, others were called, until I was fed out to ask that I just wait there without question.

I became so frustrated that when it left 3 of us, I stand at the back door of 3J class (class for interview) starring the interview of others although the 4 of them ( Qin Qian, Shin Yie, Jie See and Yuan Soon) shouldn't be observed during the interview. Finally, I was the last so I entered the class with frustration and anger. I was most shocked and astonished by the question they ( 2 of them only, Qin Qian and Shin Yie) asked me. They asked me something or some personal problems between Qin Qian and I which we had already solved long time ago. I were tired, surprised, and pressurized during the "judgement". The way they questioned me made me feel as if I was questioned like a fugitive or a prisoner which committed a crime. I feel the same way when I was questioned by my father when I was still a child where I cried when my toys were torn. The cry was like a sorrow which couldn't be explained through words but I was forced to answer with silence. That's the feeling that ran through my soul during the "judgement". There were many things that I couldn't explaine in a blink of eye which required a lot of thinking and explanation that might be wrong or misleading severely if I answered without detail thinking. Finally the interview ended with her notification of my action wasting their time. I was very very frustrated that after I reached home at approximately 1.30 p.m. I straight typed a letter with such anger and hatred, I sent it to Jie See's house accompanied by Hong Le in order to be redelivered by Jie See to Qin Qian since Qin Qian didn't reply my SMS requesting her e-mail address. I as well disappointed of the new President because by my impression of her overwhelming performance, I thought she would be rational enough to differentiate between personal issue and official issue. To understand more of the factor of this incident, read the letter which I wrote, being posed later on. Thank you for reading.